I know he won’t…but my wish is for him to read this. I’ve made such a mess as usual, and saying anything else would be too much…even though I know I’ve long surpassed that. I’d really just like to say thank you. Thank you for saying what I needed to hear even though it wasn’t what I wanted to hear. And for being a friend when a quick dismissal would have been so much easier. I’m not really sure what response I was seeking, and realize my honesty policy sometimes does no good for anyone (except make me feel better, because selfishly I think honestly equals good), specifically when no one is asking me for my thoughts. I’m sure it had everything to do with what was right for him and less to do with me or being a friend. I have so much more respect for him and know there's so much less for me. I also know he doesn’t realize that I was listening or even understood what he was saying. But I’d love for him to know that in fact I was. I did what I should have and it turned out so much better than I could have imagined and I realize how undeserving of this that I am. I want to say thank you for being a friend, even though that wasn’t the intention and for just being a decent human being...actually more than decent -really upstanding.